diary on 23/6/2010 [ feeling bad ]

Today morning 8am, when i arrive college lecturer hall ,
our CourseRep tell me that Mr .Ong ( Math Lecturer )
want me to contact him.....................
after he telling me this news..............
i very soon take up my phone n call him......
after dial successfull
i said :" Sir, i am AEL group D leader, izit u find me??"
Mr Ong :" How can u book the replacement at this time for me,
did u know that in this session i got other class need
to teach them "
I said: " Oo, coz that day i call n ask u, u said u this time can spend the time
& replace the math tutorial for us.......
Mr. Ong : " Wait ...Wait.....U listen to me 1st.........
I said: " Ok....Ok..."
Mr said " How can u book that time for me, u now go n inform them later
12.30pm cancel the replacement tutorial class...remember to inform them..
I said : " Ok ...Ok...i will inform them...."
Mr. Ong :" u do lai that d things for me, dun try play around the fool with me....
i try to give u the opportunities, but u all din appretiate it.......
I said: " sorry sir.....i not purposely 1...........i really duno that time u have the class..."
Mr.Ong : " u tell them , no more tutorial class, n the class change back to normal time,
friday "
I said: " ya, i will inform them... sir, sorry......"



Mr .Ong: " cut off the phone "

Actually before this, i alr got the idea to leave this advanced diploma,
coz i really feel that really stress for me to study at here......
may b is me not enuf hardworking.......
or may b my thinking is slower than others.......
So , after this case......
it give me more pessimistic thinking for me
to terminate this advanced diploma course.........
I really surrender about it............
Tonight is going to call my mom n dad....
ask for their opinion........
but i know that finally decisions also
need me to make a decisions............

* Actually not only the Mr.Ong case then i only think to terminate
this course.......actually b4 that, i alr always ask my self.......
izzit this course u like it.......n how i cope with those subject....
after Mr. Ong case he just give me the brave to face to it .
Coz i know myself................*

Obsession for 1 week

Recently, i have bother too many thing,
those unhappy things will always call up
in my mind...so i will fall in mood down &
steam steam categories.....
i hope that i can reformat my mind.
So that i wont think those unhappy things.......
coz this XX things happen,
then this things bring my life go in to black mood.......
n also not so like talk too much with people.......
But, i think this is not bad at all,
coz this things happen will let me
talk lesser n not so annoiying,
n will let me concentrate to my study
in a long time, coz talk less then work more......
i hope next time,
i dunwan be a human,n dunwan be an animal or even
bittle also dunwan.....
i think the most syok d is to be a flower or tree....
coz they have nothingborder.........
May be is i think too much.............