This is the time to let me put down her

From 16th Aug 2010  Noon 11.51am,
Start from now i will restart all my memory again .......
Past is belong to past......
now onwards is time to let me start a new life ...
and dump the past memory away..
Recently busy on study....
because exam is in the corner.......
so i need to add oil so that i can achieve my goal ,
so that it wont fail in the final exam......
i will put all my effort into study........
touch wood say....
if my final exam fail , then i think i will terminated this course....
coz i know that i not interested in this field........
but i still hope that i can pass my final although i know that i not interested in electronic field....

祝大家七夕情人节快乐

但愿那些有情人的终成眷属， 
也在这祝那些还没找到情人的
可以找到好伴侣。。。。

Waiting You To Accept ME

Today is Sunday, whole night just sleep for 1 n the half hour

from 12.30am sleep till 2.00am only.......

duno why....until now still very vitality......

My last called before i sleep is Song Ji.........

This is also the 1st time i chat wif her at phone for so long period..

We had chat a lot of topics in the phone.........

& the important things is i very happy to chat wif her.......

I now only discover that , actually she can talk with ME for every topics............

Song Ji........I will wait for your acceptance ....

to be your belove......to be your Bf........

that who always can take care of you,

Sayang you , have an intimate talk with you.......

to hold tight your hand when you alone......

to let u feel not lonely......

to hug you.......then u will feel more secure & more warm....

I will use action to prove it to you ,

that i not just to make empty promises......

What is the meaning of LOVE （谈恋爱）and How can Us preserve the LOVE

What is the meaning of love ( 谈恋爱 ),

Actually the meaning of love ( 谈恋爱 )
is to let each other to have an intimate talk.....

we should enjoy the process.....when we talk to our belove....

but not the speed of physical contact......

because if the speed of physical contact is too fast....

Usually this will let the guy or girl lost their direction....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_v4kkJGKCHY&feature=related

Am I Get Mentally Metamorphosis

Am I Get Mentally Metamorphosis ????

Because I think I getting addicted........

to sniff her scent every day................

The scent come from that day she come and visit me.....

then she have left her scent in my bed........

because I lend her my bed for her........

& myself sleep in the living room at night........

Today morning, also means yesterday night......

I dream her.....................

I dream ....she is going wif me to a 5 star restaurants to have dinner.....

The environment was very nice..........

But in the middle..............

My housemate phone Rang...........Alarm......

Then my dream Goneeeeeeeeee

I need to wake up learn to stop his Alarm......

After i successfully switch off the Alarm......

I try hard to continue the dream......

But it CAN'T work anymore...........

Is loyalty or Persistent

I am wondering that am I too loyalty or persistent to LOVE...........

is it good for loyalty....I think most of the ppl sure say yes

Is it good for persistent to LOVE.......

I think most of the ppl say No

what kind of situation that i facing now........

question marks?????

If the girl that i love.....

if she ask me why I will fall in LOVE to her......

Actually this kind of question have no answer.........

because....

That is a kind of feeling when u talk with her,

when u see through her eye,

every action that she done in front of you...

you will never forget......

when u or she see each other...

then your heart bit will be abnormal.......

I can feel it..........................

Finally know the Reason

11/Aughust/2010 5:07.pm,

finally she let me know the reason

why she reject me as hes bf for so many times........

When i heard this reason, although i feel more comfortable....

but i still can put the stone down.......

Izzit i too love her.......

OR

I spend too much time for her but get ntn........

OR

I dun like ppl reject me........

till now.......

i still duno the answer..............

But i can promise that........

if she let me take care of her,

then i will treat her very very good.........

i hope i can take care of her & sayang her........

I really really really miss her.............

Song Ji........I LOVE YOU very muchhhhhhhhh.........

Do not impose the things that not belong to you

Today, i learn a lesson. This lesson is due to LOVE ......

This story let me know..............

( " If the things not belongs to Me....

All the times.........

It still not belongs to Me " )

The girl that i love, ............

The things that i love.........

The style that i love.........

The heart that i love.......

The pattern that i love......

The elegant that i love.......

The attentive that i love.......

Now, i totally dun have the chance to appreciate those nice things.....

It was not belongs to me already ,

No..........,

from start to the End already not belongs to me......

I Love Her very very much.............

Already put a lot of effort, but finally........

gone case.............

Try hard.....

but get nothingsssssssss.......

not only love........is every field.......

i don't know the next step what should i do......

diary on 23/6/2010 [ feeling bad ]

Today morning 8am, when i arrive college lecturer hall ,
our CourseRep tell me that Mr .Ong ( Math Lecturer )
want me to contact him.....................
after he telling me this news..............
i very soon take up my phone n call him......
after dial successfull
i said :" Sir, i am AEL group D leader, izit u find me??"
Mr Ong :" How can u book the replacement at this time for me,
did u know that in this session i got other class need
to teach them "
I said: " Oo, coz that day i call n ask u, u said u this time can spend the time
& replace the math tutorial for us.......
Mr. Ong : " Wait ...Wait.....U listen to me 1st.........
I said: " Ok....Ok..."
Mr said " How can u book that time for me, u now go n inform them later
12.30pm cancel the replacement tutorial class...remember to inform them..
I said : " Ok ...Ok...i will inform them...."
Mr. Ong :" u do lai that d things for me, dun try play around the fool with me....
i try to give u the opportunities, but u all din appretiate it.......
I said: " sorry sir.....i not purposely 1...........i really duno that time u have the class..."
Mr.Ong : " u tell them , no more tutorial class, n the class change back to normal time,
friday "
I said: " ya, i will inform them... sir, sorry......"



Mr .Ong: " cut off the phone "

Actually before this, i alr got the idea to leave this advanced diploma,
coz i really feel that really stress for me to study at here......
may b is me not enuf hardworking.......
or may b my thinking is slower than others.......
So , after this case......
it give me more pessimistic thinking for me
to terminate this advanced diploma course.........
I really surrender about it............
Tonight is going to call my mom n dad....
ask for their opinion........
but i know that finally decisions also
need me to make a decisions............

* Actually not only the Mr.Ong case then i only think to terminate
this course.......actually b4 that, i alr always ask my self.......
izzit this course u like it.......n how i cope with those subject....
after Mr. Ong case he just give me the brave to face to it .
Coz i know myself................*

Obsession for 1 week

Recently, i have bother too many thing,
those unhappy things will always call up
in my mind...so i will fall in mood down &
steam steam categories.....
i hope that i can reformat my mind.
So that i wont think those unhappy things.......
coz this XX things happen,
then this things bring my life go in to black mood.......
n also not so like talk too much with people.......
But, i think this is not bad at all,
coz this things happen will let me
talk lesser n not so annoiying,
n will let me concentrate to my study
in a long time, coz talk less then work more......
i hope next time,
i dunwan be a human,n dunwan be an animal or even
bittle also dunwan.....
i think the most syok d is to be a flower or tree....
coz they have nothingborder.........
May be is i think too much.............

New Year cloth and pants......

Yesterday was 8 Feb 2010, we ( me , ai vee , phaik har & li wan ) <> go to Quensbay Mall to shopping, haha....actually i only me go shopping and go to buy New Year Cloth and Pants...they just help to give suggestion for me. Haha very happy go out with them...coz really long time din go out with them liao......so at there we go a few shop to buy ( Hot element , Top fashion , Brand outlet , and etc. ) forget what shop name liao.......total all i bought 1o pieces of cloth and 3 pieces of pants......b4 that i thought i buy this 13 pieces of cloth n pants only RM350 , but after i count i only realised i spend not only RM350 , actually is RM 440.......lolz......
Now really cashless d ( Pok Kai ) ........ but after CNY i wana go re-style my hair and DYE my hair gok...lolz.....all need money.......no money liao.....how to DYE hair aaaaaa..........

Face A Big problem while Working Part Time job...

3 February 2010, today i work at sunshine farlim is the final day, my working hour is from 1 to 10pm.......work at sunshine farlim as promoter......easy than work at sunshine square...more free.
today when the time reach 9am.....got some 1 sms me.......( the person said.....can i be friend with me )......at that time,i though is my friend .....friend playing me........just send the nonsense things for me....then i and my others friend try to find out this phone number.......but when we use diff number call the person....but the person din pick up the phone.......till i reach home.
she send 2nd msg to me.......i only know she is a girl, she tell me her chinese name.......but i duno who is her......that time i oso half believe this person....so i call my friend that work with me 1 to make sure this phone number......then my friend told me......is a little girl ( form 3 ) ,this little pritty girl always come n find us when we was working in sunshine farlim....coz her mother also work in there....so every day she come here n find us talk.........my friend tell me is her give the form 3 gal my handphone No 1......coz the little girl ask from her.......so my friend give her my phone number..........manatau.....she sms me....wana friend wif me.....this is ok.......
but OMG.......she wana take my picture...........but at that time i duno her chinese name....when her tell me her chinese name.....i oso duno who she is...........so i tell her.....( i duno u wor n din see u b4, how i wana give my photo to u )....then she said if i dun wan giv then suak d....
she angry me d wor........then i msg to her.......she din reply me till now....may b tomorrow got schl,then she sleep jor....or may b she really angry d........duno pun??????..........
lolz....this kind of problem how to solve ya.....so headache..........i just know her 2 day nia.......
then got this problem d.............how aaaa????? she now only 16 years old.......but i now is 21 years old........so big diff.............lolz.........5 years.........like a big brother with her youngest sister.........
too complicated...this kind of relationship....hard to accepted it........How????? any body help me?????

Holiday gathering......

Today go for gurney, 1st we plan 10am go gurney 1, but is boon guan come to fetch me....then he late about 15 minute ( he said he go toilet pXXX sXX ) .Haha...

after he reach to my house, then we start to go sigina ( Kenny ) house fetch him, manatau he tell us to wait him,coz got ppl come to his house configure smtg, so i n ah guan go to kopitiam to wait him.......wah ...there got many ants on my body....lolz....damn it....y the ants so like me.....haha

may b i handsome gua....then attract them come......haha.....

then about 30minutes later....kenny said can go to fetch ah chai d........

then we go to ah chai hostel about 12.++am, then i suddenly wana go pee....then go borrow Welmart accesories shop toilet to relax......Haha........after that we really start our journey to

gurney d......firstly ,we go cinema buy ticket .after that we go Breeks for lunch,at there we take a few photo. After lunh n movie........we go for shopping......actually today is go gurney to buy new shirt 1......but hor......those shirt not attract me ......so i din buy even 1 piece....sad......

then go home d.........on the way going off ......Omg...........traffic sipek jam.........coz tomorrow is thaipusam........so traffic jam........we stay in car about 1 hour ++ only reach home .....lolz......

Semester Break...Holiday

Today is my second day of my semester break, yiipeee
but this olso make me fell sad....coz very boring n lonely
y leh? y i will said lie that ...haha
no girl friend mah.......so no ppl accompany me...haiz
when holiday....then i will think exam n study time is better....
but, when exam n study....my mind is totslly opposite...i will think about faster reach holiday
funny right??????
holiday ....holiday....holiday...
what can i do???????
no idea at all..........exclude go for take ang pao...what can i do?????
do nothing in this holiday......totally feel wasting life......
after 1 month holiday, need to go back college....face to my damn bad result....
hate this kind of feeling......
always need to wait to noob Tar college website...to upload..........
lag till.....
hope.....my result won't fail n oso won't pull down my CGPA....
lauzy ppl get lazy result........
tension + stress.......