Finally know the Reason

11/Aughust/2010 5:07.pm,

finally she let me know the reason

why she reject me as hes bf for so many times........

When i heard this reason, although i feel more comfortable....

but i still can put the stone down.......

Izzit i too love her.......

OR

I spend too much time for her but get ntn........

OR

I dun like ppl reject me........

till now.......

i still duno the answer..............

But i can promise that........

if she let me take care of her,

then i will treat her very very good.........

i hope i can take care of her & sayang her........

I really really really miss her.............

Song Ji........I LOVE YOU very muchhhhhhhhh.........

Do not impose the things that not belong to you

Today, i learn a lesson. This lesson is due to LOVE ......

This story let me know..............

( " If the things not belongs to Me....

All the times.........

It still not belongs to Me " )

The girl that i love, ............

The things that i love.........

The style that i love.........

The heart that i love.......

The pattern that i love......

The elegant that i love.......

The attentive that i love.......

Now, i totally dun have the chance to appreciate those nice things.....

It was not belongs to me already ,

No..........,

from start to the End already not belongs to me......

I Love Her very very much.............

Already put a lot of effort, but finally........

gone case.............

Try hard.....

but get nothingsssssssss.......

not only love........is every field.......

i don't know the next step what should i do......

diary on 23/6/2010 [ feeling bad ]

Today morning 8am, when i arrive college lecturer hall ,
our CourseRep tell me that Mr .Ong ( Math Lecturer )
want me to contact him.....................
after he telling me this news..............
i very soon take up my phone n call him......
after dial successfull
i said :" Sir, i am AEL group D leader, izit u find me??"
Mr Ong :" How can u book the replacement at this time for me,
did u know that in this session i got other class need
to teach them "
I said: " Oo, coz that day i call n ask u, u said u this time can spend the time
& replace the math tutorial for us.......
Mr. Ong : " Wait ...Wait.....U listen to me 1st.........
I said: " Ok....Ok..."
Mr said " How can u book that time for me, u now go n inform them later
12.30pm cancel the replacement tutorial class...remember to inform them..
I said : " Ok ...Ok...i will inform them...."
Mr. Ong :" u do lai that d things for me, dun try play around the fool with me....
i try to give u the opportunities, but u all din appretiate it.......
I said: " sorry sir.....i not purposely 1...........i really duno that time u have the class..."
Mr.Ong : " u tell them , no more tutorial class, n the class change back to normal time,
friday "
I said: " ya, i will inform them... sir, sorry......"



Mr .Ong: " cut off the phone "

Actually before this, i alr got the idea to leave this advanced diploma,
coz i really feel that really stress for me to study at here......
may b is me not enuf hardworking.......
or may b my thinking is slower than others.......
So , after this case......
it give me more pessimistic thinking for me
to terminate this advanced diploma course.........
I really surrender about it............
Tonight is going to call my mom n dad....
ask for their opinion........
but i know that finally decisions also
need me to make a decisions............

* Actually not only the Mr.Ong case then i only think to terminate
this course.......actually b4 that, i alr always ask my self.......
izzit this course u like it.......n how i cope with those subject....
after Mr. Ong case he just give me the brave to face to it .
Coz i know myself................*

Obsession for 1 week

Recently, i have bother too many thing,
those unhappy things will always call up
in my mind...so i will fall in mood down &
steam steam categories.....
i hope that i can reformat my mind.
So that i wont think those unhappy things.......
coz this XX things happen,
then this things bring my life go in to black mood.......
n also not so like talk too much with people.......
But, i think this is not bad at all,
coz this things happen will let me
talk lesser n not so annoiying,
n will let me concentrate to my study
in a long time, coz talk less then work more......
i hope next time,
i dunwan be a human,n dunwan be an animal or even
bittle also dunwan.....
i think the most syok d is to be a flower or tree....
coz they have nothingborder.........
May be is i think too much.............

New Year cloth and pants......

Yesterday was 8 Feb 2010, we ( me , ai vee , phaik har & li wan ) <> go to Quensbay Mall to shopping, haha....actually i only me go shopping and go to buy New Year Cloth and Pants...they just help to give suggestion for me. Haha very happy go out with them...coz really long time din go out with them liao......so at there we go a few shop to buy ( Hot element , Top fashion , Brand outlet , and etc. ) forget what shop name liao.......total all i bought 1o pieces of cloth and 3 pieces of pants......b4 that i thought i buy this 13 pieces of cloth n pants only RM350 , but after i count i only realised i spend not only RM350 , actually is RM 440.......lolz......
Now really cashless d ( Pok Kai ) ........ but after CNY i wana go re-style my hair and DYE my hair gok...lolz.....all need money.......no money liao.....how to DYE hair aaaaaa..........

Face A Big problem while Working Part Time job...

3 February 2010, today i work at sunshine farlim is the final day, my working hour is from 1 to 10pm.......work at sunshine farlim as promoter......easy than work at sunshine square...more free.
today when the time reach 9am.....got some 1 sms me.......( the person said.....can i be friend with me )......at that time,i though is my friend .....friend playing me........just send the nonsense things for me....then i and my others friend try to find out this phone number.......but when we use diff number call the person....but the person din pick up the phone.......till i reach home.
she send 2nd msg to me.......i only know she is a girl, she tell me her chinese name.......but i duno who is her......that time i oso half believe this person....so i call my friend that work with me 1 to make sure this phone number......then my friend told me......is a little girl ( form 3 ) ,this little pritty girl always come n find us when we was working in sunshine farlim....coz her mother also work in there....so every day she come here n find us talk.........my friend tell me is her give the form 3 gal my handphone No 1......coz the little girl ask from her.......so my friend give her my phone number..........manatau.....she sms me....wana friend wif me.....this is ok.......
but OMG.......she wana take my picture...........but at that time i duno her chinese name....when her tell me her chinese name.....i oso duno who she is...........so i tell her.....( i duno u wor n din see u b4, how i wana give my photo to u )....then she said if i dun wan giv then suak d....
she angry me d wor........then i msg to her.......she din reply me till now....may b tomorrow got schl,then she sleep jor....or may b she really angry d........duno pun??????..........
lolz....this kind of problem how to solve ya.....so headache..........i just know her 2 day nia.......
then got this problem d.............how aaaa????? she now only 16 years old.......but i now is 21 years old........so big diff.............lolz.........5 years.........like a big brother with her youngest sister.........
too complicated...this kind of relationship....hard to accepted it........How????? any body help me?????