Am I Get Mentally Metamorphosis

Am I Get Mentally Metamorphosis ????

Because I think I getting addicted........

to sniff her scent every day................

The scent come from that day she come and visit me.....

then she have left her scent in my bed........

because I lend her my bed for her........

& myself sleep in the living room at night........

Today morning, also means yesterday night......

I dream her.....................

I dream ....she is going wif me to a 5 star restaurants to have dinner.....

The environment was very nice..........

But in the middle..............

My housemate phone Rang...........Alarm......

Then my dream Goneeeeeeeeee

I need to wake up learn to stop his Alarm......

After i successfully switch off the Alarm......

I try hard to continue the dream......

But it CAN'T work anymore...........

Is loyalty or Persistent

I am wondering that am I too loyalty or persistent to LOVE...........

is it good for loyalty....I think most of the ppl sure say yes

Is it good for persistent to LOVE.......

I think most of the ppl say No

what kind of situation that i facing now........

question marks?????

If the girl that i love.....

if she ask me why I will fall in LOVE to her......

Actually this kind of question have no answer.........

because....

That is a kind of feeling when u talk with her,

when u see through her eye,

every action that she done in front of you...

you will never forget......

when u or she see each other...

then your heart bit will be abnormal.......

I can feel it..........................

Finally know the Reason

11/Aughust/2010 5:07.pm,

finally she let me know the reason

why she reject me as hes bf for so many times........

When i heard this reason, although i feel more comfortable....

but i still can put the stone down.......

Izzit i too love her.......

OR

I spend too much time for her but get ntn........

OR

I dun like ppl reject me........

till now.......

i still duno the answer..............

But i can promise that........

if she let me take care of her,

then i will treat her very very good.........

i hope i can take care of her & sayang her........

I really really really miss her.............

Song Ji........I LOVE YOU very muchhhhhhhhh.........

Do not impose the things that not belong to you

Today, i learn a lesson. This lesson is due to LOVE ......

This story let me know..............

( " If the things not belongs to Me....

All the times.........

It still not belongs to Me " )

The girl that i love, ............

The things that i love.........

The style that i love.........

The heart that i love.......

The pattern that i love......

The elegant that i love.......

The attentive that i love.......

Now, i totally dun have the chance to appreciate those nice things.....

It was not belongs to me already ,

No..........,

from start to the End already not belongs to me......

I Love Her very very much.............

Already put a lot of effort, but finally........

gone case.............

Try hard.....

but get nothingsssssssss.......

not only love........is every field.......

i don't know the next step what should i do......

diary on 23/6/2010 [ feeling bad ]

Today morning 8am, when i arrive college lecturer hall ,
our CourseRep tell me that Mr .Ong ( Math Lecturer )
want me to contact him.....................
after he telling me this news..............
i very soon take up my phone n call him......
after dial successfull
i said :" Sir, i am AEL group D leader, izit u find me??"
Mr Ong :" How can u book the replacement at this time for me,
did u know that in this session i got other class need
to teach them "
I said: " Oo, coz that day i call n ask u, u said u this time can spend the time
& replace the math tutorial for us.......
Mr. Ong : " Wait ...Wait.....U listen to me 1st.........
I said: " Ok....Ok..."
Mr said " How can u book that time for me, u now go n inform them later
12.30pm cancel the replacement tutorial class...remember to inform them..
I said : " Ok ...Ok...i will inform them...."
Mr. Ong :" u do lai that d things for me, dun try play around the fool with me....
i try to give u the opportunities, but u all din appretiate it.......
I said: " sorry sir.....i not purposely 1...........i really duno that time u have the class..."
Mr.Ong : " u tell them , no more tutorial class, n the class change back to normal time,
friday "
I said: " ya, i will inform them... sir, sorry......"



Mr .Ong: " cut off the phone "

Actually before this, i alr got the idea to leave this advanced diploma,
coz i really feel that really stress for me to study at here......
may b is me not enuf hardworking.......
or may b my thinking is slower than others.......
So , after this case......
it give me more pessimistic thinking for me
to terminate this advanced diploma course.........
I really surrender about it............
Tonight is going to call my mom n dad....
ask for their opinion........
but i know that finally decisions also
need me to make a decisions............

* Actually not only the Mr.Ong case then i only think to terminate
this course.......actually b4 that, i alr always ask my self.......
izzit this course u like it.......n how i cope with those subject....
after Mr. Ong case he just give me the brave to face to it .
Coz i know myself................*

Obsession for 1 week

Recently, i have bother too many thing,
those unhappy things will always call up
in my mind...so i will fall in mood down &
steam steam categories.....
i hope that i can reformat my mind.
So that i wont think those unhappy things.......
coz this XX things happen,
then this things bring my life go in to black mood.......
n also not so like talk too much with people.......
But, i think this is not bad at all,
coz this things happen will let me
talk lesser n not so annoiying,
n will let me concentrate to my study
in a long time, coz talk less then work more......
i hope next time,
i dunwan be a human,n dunwan be an animal or even
bittle also dunwan.....
i think the most syok d is to be a flower or tree....
coz they have nothingborder.........
May be is i think too much.............